and. i was thinking about my friends and shit. like how cresten was giving me a hard time about Frey earlier. saying yeah blah blah blah and then they all fall for you and stuff. not Frey. hes too good for me. really. like... hes older. well the same age as cresten, but still.. and yeah. he i dunno... its like.. im almost priveleged to have him as a good friend. i dont think hed EVER see me as anything more than that. i dont think he could. i mean.. hell hes got LAURA. come on. i have to look like the googly eyed retard with snot running down my face compared to her. and im such a loser. really. i mean a guy like that would never go for me. hes a rich kid. he wouldnt think twice about not dating me. really. so cresten has NOTHING to worry about really. hell i was suprised a guy like cresten would go for me. i mean. im not that pretty or great. at least i dont think i am. i mean i think im pretty but not super gorgeous. i dont know what im getting at. *sigh* i hope its not the end of the world. really. like the prophesies being fulfilled with this new pope and stuff.. hmm. well. i just want to live this out and see what happens. you know a 2005 black mustdang would be pretty badass. even if its not a convertible. i think the only reason i want one so bad is cuz Frey has one anyways. lucky Laura. hes such a richy rich boy. well.. im a richy rich granddaughter tho. but it doesnt get to me, cuz my life still sucks with money. i think thats why i dont really see how people can make such a big deal about little green peices of paper. *shrug* i dunno. i got my ice cream.