schools out. cresten graduates tomorrow. im a junior now. junior. junior. junior..((((echo))) its scary. considering ive known cresten since the end of eighth grade year. damn. and ive liked him since the first day i met him. damn. shit Josh is a senior. and paul, colin, neil, garrett, ... shit. Frey is graduating. shit. were growing up too quick. its happening too fast. i thought i had time. i gotta start applying to colleges. i graduate in two years. thats it. just two. I GET MY LISCENSE this week. i NEVER thought id get that. i should also have a car within the next two weeks. shit. .....i still havent visited steve's grave. its been a year and a half. **** i love cresten though. we would make a great married couple. i think we make myself sick. i hate all that lovey stuff usually, but with him i LOVE it. damn we made dinner together tonight and i found it to be SOO exciting. really im not being sarcastic like usual. i actually LIKED that. making dinner with him and then sitting on the back porch watching the sun set talking about politic. man, cresten, we're pathetic. oh well, at least we still know how to rock out and party sometimes. cuz if not, id be really worried. im such a boy. i wont evaluate on that. Gavrilo. i like that name. i would want that name. *sigh* i wish he was here, so i could fall asleep on his chest. he truly is my knight in armor... only the armor is tarnished and he cant get on his steed cuz hes never really ridden a horse before. but its great. i dont want a perfect guy, cuz if hes not perfect, then that means hes perfect for me. get it? but. wow. i look at him sometimes and wonder. how the hell do i have you. how the hell do you stay with me. how the hell did i fall for you so bad. haha. oh man. im stuck. and tired. blah. later.