so.. i have to choose. basically. its get back together with cresten, or lose him forever. i mean.. what i got out of it is that we cant even be friends. he wont come to church. hes really the only reason that keeps me going. i mean. damn. i knew it would come to this. my fucking decision. i hate it. someone.. make it for me. i mean........ they both say the same things to me. i make them so happy. that the world just feels right when im around. i gtg moms bitching.