see i hate this i dont hear from you for like four hours im still kind of sore not mad sore about the whole not coming over to have dinner with me and go to my recital but instead going out to JD and Fros parties on sunday and jesus i ditched my friends for him on MY birthday weekend its kind of unfair i think that and i hate HATE him going to parties without me i hate it hate it so much i trust him believe me i do its just the fact that you know. hes alone at a party........ and i guess it never occurred that i might have wanted to do something sunday afternoon like after church you know go out and celebrate his birthday now i know why he was so shitty with me about me wanting to go to zach and kevin's party but honestly if i was off going to parties without him you cant TELL me HE wouldnt be shitty at all quite the contrary so its so hard for me to be like "nooooooooo... kyle! thats fine! go to the parties! have a wonderful time while other little girls are hitting on you and trying to make silly advances on you!" so hard and no its not like this is a huge problem to me something that ill break up with him for or anything its just unfair you know. and hell probably think i wrote this to get SYMPATHY from my SIT DIARY FRIENDS but no thats NOT what it is i just want to vent let me get this out and ill be fine im just shitty you know. not really even shitty and all just i guess i feel like a cat thats been petted the wrong way its also the way Ashley Vogel makes me feel but... i wont get on her right now gah .................... breath............ im over it never mind.