Words cant describe how i feel right now and you'll never understand.The day i said i died inside was not far from the truth.A kiss here and a 'i love you' there were just a glint of what used to be.Do you honestly think i look that bad?You havent even seen me.no one has not now not ever.I realize i pushed you away.A little pain to swallow a heartattack.This will be best for us both in the end.i cant call you ive never been one to face...
...confrintation head on.Veronica see how easy it is to let go of your emotions.They start to play tricks on you.you practically said it yourself.You think your hopelessly in love when really your just lonely with with a desire.love.i think i missed out on love when the arrows were shot.instead i replaced it with drugs and partying as you so put it.no..that was just a night of juvenille fun.sleeping in my truck in the middle of nowhere..
priceless.i always had the choice to go back but what expirience would i get out of that.So go ahead and talk your shit Veronica Koester maybe it's what i want.i mean the sooner you start the faster it ends.sorry if i made you unhappy but atleast my mouth will stay clean.maybe you'll see it just wasn't meant to be.
just dont forget the good times we shared.start thinking about all the new ones you'll have.noy haveing to worry about me and where im at and who im with ill be just fine on my own.your such a beatiful person and i want to see better for you.i know there is a guy who's right for you and he's following me.I hate it when your trying to put your thougts down and the phone keeps ringing.i guess jared tipped you off.well anyway.i thought you would
forget about me like the rest.im sorry you cared so much but i tried to feel yhe same way.i just didn't want to make your life even harder.before i knew it was too late and i had over stepped my boundrys.fairytale endings only happen to real people.not us.now be with the people you love and accept there warm embrace.i hope to see you again sometime on better terms.
Well Veronica...i guess i should of read your diary before i wrote those last entrys.you see..it worked all too well.i knew all it would take was that,(me being gone).already you have started moving on.it hurts to see it happen that fast.But do you see where it's easier?like i said,i'm sorry i hurt you but it's for your own good.you still have many years to spend with someone else.Just don't be a bitch about it.i plan on being nice to you.