ok so now that im back in my right mentality.... im sitting here waiting for tristan, looking at a fake rose cresten gave me the weekend i got my prom dress. i dont know why i love him. its bullshit when i say i dont. i realized it wednesday night, when i cried that hard. i really do love him. i didnt know i did. i was having doubt. but i know i do. im just not sure about him. i think what i want.. is to be sure of it. i mean he says he does and all my friends tell me he must, but i want to be sure of it. .........and i dont know how to make sure. maybe i will if he really does quit smokin. that would be it. i need to go sit. i look like shit today, but it doesnt matter, cuz today is last day. so. blah. i hope cresten really picks me up for the show tom. i thought about it, and i really want to go, even if i am just gonna stand there being ignored. but yeah. i dunno. i hope he doesnt give me a bullshit excuse or well an excuse as to why he cant come get me, and i cant go. ok gtg bye ::::::::okay this is later today... look by saying that quit smokin would prove it, i dont mean prove his love for me. i think what i meant was that it would lift this shroud of doubt about him from me. and ok the excuse thing was mean. im a bitch sry. i said before... i hate pmsing.