no one ever reads my long entries. its kinda crazy. yeah. i dunno. so much shit today. ... yeah i just dont feel like writing bout it. things go better left put down and untalked about. i just dont understand why all that happened. it was ridiculous. i dont want that all the time. i hate that. that shit is exactally what USED to happen with cresten. well. at least he talked to me. eventually. i dunno. what am i supposed to do. i dunno. im too.. i dunno. to write about it. i should go.. read or something. take a bath. just chill. oh yeah homework fuck. thats why i hate unstable relationshipness. cuz i devote more of my time to figuring that out than what i really need to. im just looking foreward to coffe and reggae in the art room. thats where im comfortable. except around chris mason. the kid is a god at ceramics. i feel sooo worthless compared to him. him and mike frey definetly. i dunno. im gonna write about it later. too much for me to think right now. thats all ive been doing since i got home. as for right now.. i feel like theres too much drama for me to handle. i dunno how well i take that.