was up til two this morning with mike frey playing soccer. and drinking espresso shots. hmm. and talking.. once agian.. about laura. (although i did spend a good while talking about religion with Dave, his older brother) Frey came to the decision that love is something he has got to figure out for himself and even if it IS hurting him in the long run, hes a little bit happier now with her. i said yeah i understand. i had to figure it out too. and he said yeah...lets call Rayne and David and go to denny's and i said ok. so we went to dennys and left the waitress a ransom note. we ransomed her pen. and then came home. and i couldnt sleep because of the espresso shot so i stayed up staring at the PC all night not doing much. and when i did decide to go to bed, my bed was cold and lonely. i missed cresten. i wish he was here and i lived with him and could see him when i wake up in the morning. i wish i could hold him tight long into the night and just be happy. cuz thats where im happy. now that i think about it.. and what mike said.. about figuring it out on your own.. i am. in cresten's arms im happy. and sometimes horny. lol but happy all the same. nah. i really love him. so much. gah. but im sure you know that already. so cresten. i love you! and i know you get all touchy and stuff when i talk about hanging out with Frey and the guys. but really you have nothing to fear! Rayne was hitting on me last night and frey told him to knock it off cuz i had a boyfriend already. he sticks up for you. he just needs a friend thats all. as do most people. and youre wondering why i explain this, but its because i can hear that bit of edgyness when i talk about Frey to you. so blee! i love you and thats all that really matters. and yes. its decided. cresten and i are in fact moving to england. yes! *sigh* well I AM EXHAUSTED. and i got my entire courtesan dance down so.. im in good shape right now. almost. never quite. well goodnight all and everyone who cares to read this!