gah. what do i do? theres something.. ill build up this big speech about what pisses me off about him.. to tell him.. and ill be so angry about it.. but when he calls i lose it all.. and just dont say anything... im just happy to talk to him. blah. well. grounded sucks. flip flop is gay. no? yes. i hate people who cant make up thier minds on what they want.. but.. yet i cant seem to do it either. it feels like he should be there next to me when i wake up in the morning.