"im just a stupid fuck with brilliant luck and sometimes a bright idea" im scared as hell super nervous i really want a cigarette to calm me down why i shouldnt have anything to worry about but god i love him so much i just dont want anything bad to happen god that shit with cresten fucked me up idk i just know that i havent left yet and i really really miss kyle already mom called him my boyfriend tonight and was happy about it "is your boyfriend coming to the airport tomorrow to see you off?" she likes him this is wonderful things are so wonderful im just so scared to lose it and to lose him.