*belch!* dude dude dude! today's our last show! :( but yeah cresten is gonna be there! :) and im not supposed to have caffiene before a show but fuck that i just took a caffiene pill and so now ill be cracked out for a total of eight hours! last night i was gonna go to Dan's graduation party but since i was riding with Paul... yes thats right THE paul.... we ended up at neil's instead and craig called and said everyone was over at his house so thats where we went. but Paul and i were there like a half hour before everyone else... and we talked. for like the first time in forever. and it was almost like we were apologizing. he told me a lot of stuff, just like he used to, we had an actual conversation. it was like nothing had changed. and then it got quiet and we both sort of looked out the window and back at each other. i almost apologized, for everything. and he looked like he was going to too. but thats when pat pulled up in the blazer with 7 mice that they bought at the pet store. so i chilled around the fire with Fro and Burchett, who expressed his feelings to me (since he was stoned as fuck)about how he thinks im like the coolest and really pretty and wants to talk to me more at school. i said ok kyle. and he laughed. it was awkward. allison is hookin up with Fro.. who doesnt really have a fro, so i dont know why hes Fro, but hey. we agreed that we're both great. but then i had to leave with Pat and Bergman cuz they wanted to pick up Kevin and im the only one who knows where he lives. and Pat was tellin me about how him and his girlfriend broke up and how hes actually kinda happy about it. and how so many girls are just stupid groupies and it pisses him off. and berg wanted to go to the haunted bridge. so we went to it, and its not really haunted. and then berg told me some stuff about laura and mike and how mike is pissing him off. and the he kinda just looked at me and said, "you know you just have this funny way of getting people to tell you all of their worst problems." and i said "i know". but its the truth. everyone does just tell me. i dont even have to say much. like cavin yesterday told me he thought hes turning gay! shit dude. but yeah everyone does. and i dont go out and tell people about it either. but yeah kyle just told me he thought i was like the coolest girl cuz they actually see me as "part of the group" and not another one of those dumb whores they let into the party just for sex. and hes right. cuz ... i am the only girl in that "group". at lunch, im the only girl with them. but its really cool and i like it cuz girls are just fucking annoying. yeah. I HATE POSER GIRLS theyre so dumb. girls that act like they know what the fuck a whammy bar is and shit. lol. girls that pretend to be a rocker cuz they dress like Good Charlotte and can say they listen to Lynyrd Skynyrd cuz they have "Sweet Home Alabama" on a mix CD. hahahahha. i hate you girls like that youre so annoying, and the only reason the guys ask you to come to parties is cuz they dont want it to be a saussage fest. so. im just gonna sit here and laugh at you thirteen year old fakes. well. i gotta go. wish me luck at the show!