so im okay.. i guess. i think. i mean.. maybe it.. nah.. but he said.. is it really? i dont know. im so confused.. even partly. thats not what i want. i dont want it to be about sex. even partly. i hate sex. well. i dont hate the physicall act of it.. obviously.. i mean.. shit if people only knew but i dont want it to be what the relationship is all about. no. no one ever reads this anymore. why should i care?