things have been going well the past couple of days im glad totally happy happier than ive been in so long im not constantly worried in the back of my head anything im just happy i feel like im living and not watching from the sideline anymore like i can controll whats going on instead of just sitting back and hoping the play will follow through i feel really bad for me and Kyles arguing i hate it absolutely but i guess i should learn to not use brash words on him and i wont get them in return its just if he doesnt like my music then im sorry, but dont openly say it everytime youre in my car i listen to yours usually no complaints and the "youre so hollister" comment really hurt my feelings i dont really know why it just did i guess i just felt like i was being shot down for the things i like we're so different BUT GOD I LOVE HIM! today, during school i couldnt stop thinking about him his eyes, his hair, hes so sweet my god, he has a wonderful body he might not think so, but hes just retarded its wonderful i love his chest and his arms hes strong i like that i feel like such a girl right now ill stop myself before i get really gay and carried away i guess im just saying ill try harder to not hurt your feelings if you try not to hurt mine i dont want to be shitty to each other anymore because i love you.