So obviously its officially fall and my cuddle buddy hates me. I never know what I do to deserve the shit that I'm put through or the shit that is thrown my way. I just don't understand why bad shit happens to me day in and day out. I'm very stressed because I'm not doing good in school and I've only been back a month. I bombed my english paper, math exam, and chemistry exam. I also have a paper due on Monday that I'm stressing over, at least I'm almost half way done with it already and its only been day number two. I don't know how much more of this stress I can handle. The semester seems like its never going to end and my next semester is going to be just as rough. Seriously what the junk? I'm not so sure on why I even write in here anymore because no one reads it and I have resorted back to my personal diary. I mean that way nobody can criticize me anyway. I'm sick of the harsh words and the broken hearts. I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I mean I've come to the point where my heart isn't going to be fixable anymore and that's sad but I'm never giving it away to anyone. I'm perfectly content with being miserable forever because by now I'm used to it. I suck at life and it definitely hates me