So I know that all of my entries lately have been about the exact same things. Why my life is so god damn miserable. I'm going to say that if you don't want to read this anymore or comment (not like you do anyway) you should definitely take me off of your friends list and just say good-bye because for the next couple of weeks or so I'm still going to be the most miserable person ever and its not fair to bring all of you down with me. Christina sent me a message on my MySpace last night and I never really thought about the things that she said. After I wrote her back, it did hit me that the things she said were actually true. She told me that I hid my beauty inside and that I should be the happy Erin that she knows I want to be. I never really thought about it and never realized that someone other than Chanel cared. I'm not so sure she cares or she just hates the bulletin's that I post so who knows. I just feel like I've been miserable for the past month or so and I can't change that yet. I thought it was the fact that my boyfriend doesn't care about me and wants to hang out with everyone else but me and won't even talk to me, but then I realized that everything was making me unhappy not just him. How do I change my whole life? Why can't I be happy? I wish that I had answers for all of my questions because I hate this for real ...