palisw26: i know an apology wont help right now but im sorry i have been a complete asshole palisw26: i really never wanted this to go this way ERN kckzbutt: well it did ERN kckzbutt: and it hurt more with you ignoring me than not just telling me palisw26: i was child like and should have been straight forward palisw26: i never meant to hurt you ERN kckzbutt: well you did ERN kckzbutt: a lot palisw26: i just hope i didnt ruin things to where we will never be ok palisw26: i know i cant make up for what i did but i would like to try ERN kckzbutt: i have no idea what to say palisw26: i just want you to be happy even if that means you never want to see me again. because i deserve not to be seen ERN kckzbutt: well for the past month i haven't been happy but completely miserable trying to figure out what the hell went wrong and why you wouldn't talk to me or never wanted to see me palisw26: i dont know what i was thinking ERN kckzbutt: yeah me either ERN kckzbutt: i don't know what to say ... things got weird and i got ignored ... i felt betrayed/abused/used/played for a fool ... anything you could think of i'm sure i felt that way over this palisw26: i feel like shit for treating you like this and im truly deeply sorry Auto response from ERN kckzbutt: :'( why can't we press rewind and pause it at our favorite parts ERN kckzbutt: if you like shit then imagine how i've felt because its been about a hundred times worse than that palisw26: i would understand if you do not wnat to talk to me anymore if thats what you want ERN kckzbutt: its not even that ERN kckzbutt: i'm just trying to figure out why after ignoring me for so long you're telling me this now palisw26: ive been meaning to for a while but i was scared ERN kckzbutt: why? palisw26: i dont know ERN kckzbutt: the truth doesn't hurt as much as the abandonment palisw26: what can i do to make up for some of thins because i know that what i did is inreversible ERN kckzbutt: to be honest with you, i don't know ERN kckzbutt: nothing's going to take back all the pain i've felt over this and all the tears i've cried over this and the pain that i caused upon myself palisw26: i know palisw26: well im going to let you think about if i deserve yourfriendship because in my head i dont but i hope that is not the case ERN kckzbutt: you know at first i thought there was another girl or you just decided your friends were more important than i would ever me or you just didn't want to be the "ass" and break up with me like anyone else ERN kckzbutt: be palisw26: i wanted to break up with you but this is my main downfall of doing Auto response from ERN kckzbutt: :'( why can't we press rewind and pause it at our favorite parts ERN kckzbutt: your main downfall of doing? palisw26: breaking up i get to many thoughts running through my head making me think what going to happen how she going to take it will we talk so i freak and i dont know ERN kckzbutt: well it would have been a lot easier just to tell me that you didn't want to see me because i could of handle being your friend ... my second best friend is my x boyfriend ERN kckzbutt: it hurt more by you ignoring me than if you would have just told me the truth ERN kckzbutt: i didn't sleep for two weeks and then i started taking more pills to try and sleep and i haven't been eating and i'm failing my classes in school ... ERN kckzbutt: it probably would have saved me a lot of pain palisw26: im sorry palisw26: ill just step out of your life permently sorry for everything ERN kckzbutt: i don't want that ERN kckzbutt: i'm just saying the truth is always best ERN kckzbutt: for about two weeks i thought you were cheating on me palisw26: i would never cheat on anyone palisw26: espesally you ERN kckzbutt: well that makes me feel better ERN kckzbutt: hence the fact i talk to lisa a lot because she helped clear some things up palisw26: what did she say ERN kckzbutt: she told me that you don't do anything palisw26: anything as in what ERN kckzbutt: and then today when i stopped by your house to pick up my t-shirts from her i ended up talking to her and your mom for a little while and your mom said there's no one else ERN kckzbutt: as in usually when i talk to her you're doing the same things you did when you talked to me all the time palisw26: ic ERN kckzbutt: i don't want you to completely disappear again ERN kckzbutt: i guess i just need sometime to take everything in seeing as how you were going to break up with me anyway palisw26: i dont want to either but i messed your life up ERN kckzbutt: you didn't mess it up .. this isn't the first time its happened palisw26: i know how you feel i know from experance palisw26: thats why i feel so bad about doing it to you ERN kckzbutt: well i know all about the being scared of telling the truth crap ERN kckzbutt: its just hard because i was so broken and losing justin as a friend didn't help either palisw26: how did you loose justin ERN kckzbutt: he won't talk to me ERN kckzbutt: he said when he came home no matter what happened between me and you he would still see me for a little while and we were supposed to have lunch but it never happened and i haven't talked to him since palisw26: why did you and chanel have a party you were suposed to come to the movies palisw26: he was looking forward to that for the longest time ERN kckzbutt: i told justin i wasn't going because i didn't talk to you and i didn't want to feel uncomfortable palisw26: why uncomfortable palisw26: we whould have talk things out most likly ERN kckzbutt: i wanted to talk before he came home to figure things out and it didn't happen ERN kckzbutt: i know that justin wanted to see chanel and i wanted to see justin ... we were going to hang out but i told justin i couldn't palisw26: ok Auto response from ERN kckzbutt: :'( why can't we press rewind and pause it at our favorite parts palisw26: well im going to bed and i will talk to you tomorrow ERN kckzbutt: ok ERN kckzbutt: sleep good palisw26: you too ERN kckzbutt: thanks palisw26: welcome