So I haven't updated in a while and its not because I don't have anything to say its just because I don't feel like typing in here and telling any of you. I mean its not like you guys care anyway so what's the point? I might just end this because looking back is so hard for me to do. I know that you can't dwell on the past because it will always be the past but for all honesty, the memories and the choices from the past never leave. They sit in the back of my head behind that black locked door waiting for the exact moment to trigger all of them. When that moment comes I breakdown like usual and feel more destroyed than ever before. For fuck sake :/ So I got an A on my English paper that I turned in last week. My teacher made a few comments about the extent of what I wrote but overall he said that it was a most grippling essay. Its good to know that even though I couldn't pass my english class in high school, my college english teacher thinks my writing is good. I'm only half destroyed now. Also about school, I'm thinking about changing my major again, but I have no idea to what. I mean there really isn't anything that I want to do anymore. I thought that I had everything figured out but I wasn't even close to that. Fuck school ! :[ I don't know what to write about because I'm a fucking loser so I'm saying good-bye now and maybe if you all are lucky you will hear from me again.