I know that I should be extremely happy. I have the greatest friends I could have ever asked for and my boyfriend is amazing, but I'm still sad. I found out some stuff on Sunday that had to do with Steve and I know that it shouldn't even be bugging me but it is. It just put everything into perspective and seriously, I couldn't believe that I actually waited for him to come home when I knew that nothing would happen anyway. He's dating someone now and so am I and I don't care about that but it just seems like he lied to me and then just hooked up with her anyway. I shouldn't care but I do because I seriously feel like such a fucking idiot over the whole ordeal. Ugh ... School sucks, thank god only a month left in the semester and then I'm done for a few weeks or a semester, not sure if I'm going back next semester yet or not. I might take a semester off to straighten out my life and figure everything out. Life sucks