If I had a wall I would write on it With magic marker These words "The pain I feel inside is real" The man I care about Doesn't care about the same things as I He's hurting himself And that hurts me And scares me What are we gonna do? Its my favorite holiday of all time and I am uneasy about the day Not me, and my activities But his activities And he's the one worried about me Why do people have to look for happiness In ...stupid ways? Isn't there a happiness out there Where one person can make your world? So you don't have to go look anywhere else? Even if it is temporary..... _______________________________ I've got it! He reminds me of Edward!! From Twilight series of course. Don't mean to make that comparison But it fits so well! He makes me feel like he knows everything He knows the trouble I can get into He knows things that are coming And is always protecting me And that makes me feel weak and.. well...stupid but whadeva Giving orders as if he knows everything He's being very gentle, kind..and different When he's with me, he cares His eyes tell me that He wants to be with me But he's pushing me away with mean words Because he doesnt want me involved in his chaos Because he knows we can't be together And that impossibility makes this all so intriguing Stupid Edward. Why do we have to have similiar situations? It's not like he's a vampire. He's just a Malaysian...with powers... I need to read that book again. Because I can prolly relate to Bellas feelings a whole lot more now. She can describe it so much better than I can. Especially right now. I'm NOT IN love with him. I just really care about him. Wait unti you fall in love with someone yer not supposed to.