Ever feel so invisible that people openly gossip about you while you are right there next to them?

Have you ever been in the same room or car as a bunch of other people as they were talking about you, gossiping about you, but didn't realize it was you, specifically, they were talking about?

Like "Remember that one time when someone did that stupid thing..." And that someone they are referring to was you, that did that stupid thing? But none of them seemed to remember that detail, but everything else in that circumstance they seem remember in order to judge and criticize?

And you are so embarassed and don't want to speak up about it, you just want to hide under a rock and die?

And you suddenly feel sick knowing someone might eventually remember who that stupid person was in a few minutes and point you out, and then you'll have to pretend to laugh it off with the rest of them and make fun of yourself in order to play it cool, like you don't care, pretend like you don't remember making embarassing mistakes?

But which mistakes actually are still on your mind more frequently than you'd rather admit, maybe still keep you up at night or make you doubt yourself constantly? Those mistakes you remember VERY well actually and have overanalyzed WAY too much. Mistakes you know the details better than anyone else in that room mistakes you could criticize yourself way more than any of them could.

So instead of saying anything you just kind of slink away in the background and disappear, knowing people will forget about that conversation, not think anything of it, and probably won't even know notice you left.

Yeah, I had one of those experiences yesterday.