They tell you since you learn to walk, one step at a time. When you learn to talk, one syllable at once. When you're a teenager or at school, one day at a time. I believe, once I hit old age, it'll be one step at a time again. I don't think anyone will ever try to step up and completely do it themselves. So, I've taken my liberty. On one hand...I just read Alice's diary. She make a lot of sense. On the other, she simply insulted some people's morales. The way they live their lives. And yes, if you ask me, which you didn't it's their lives. Let them live! The one thing I agree with my father on, "You're only young once!" Yup. My sister uses that as a crutch sometimes. Anyway, my only problem isn't about finding myself, it's about finding someone else. Neish never used to be so distant. And I hear her so well, but I can't feel her the way I used to. And she's so caught up between herself and life, I don't think she can honestly still say she knows the difference between me and Sara. Although she says she does. Not to be mean, although I normally am, even when I'm honestly not trying to be, I'm being unusually mean. I can't stand her right now. She knows how I feel..and yet, she mostly ignores me around Sara. No matter what, I'm always hurting Sara, being mean to Sara, "not being very nice" or being straight evil to the girl. I wonder if it's me, or if maybe... Well anyway, I'm sure Sara will either turn out to be another It. Make you feel so good, just to let you right back down. I wonder if Sara will turn out to be the It, turn into a "Best Friend" only to disappoint her. Or if... I'm tired of talking about it. Only in this world could people have such harsh words, but mean to be so great.