I'm not just empty though, I'm happy too. See, if you've ever heard India.Arie's song, I've listened to that and I'm trying to live by it. It's called The Truth and what she says is: If he ever left me, I wouldn't even be sad, no Cause there's a blessing in every lesson And I'm glad that I knew him at all And that meant so much to me..It's so true. There's a blessing inside of me letting Alex go. Yes, I love him, I always will. Unfortunately, I'm at a point in my life where I'll take his comfort, his will, and his life above and before my own. I'll put him first. I thought that's what love was. But that's wrong, because I'm killing myself for him, and he's not noticing. So, you know what? I'm looking for my own soul that I lost inside of finding him. And if I don't get it back, I'll know that I still grow inside of him, but that part of my soul is like acid and it'll eat me. Therefore, I don't need it. So I'll have to let it go.. -And I loved you --Sunshine Aloaryn