Why does it seem like everytime a day is REALLY bad, it gets just a little bit worse when you think it can't? T's mad. She found out I kissed Erin. It happened the 18th. A month and a day ago. Explanations are so far and few between with me. I don't expect them, I don't give them. I've actually come to RESENT them. I love T with all my heart. I'd do anything to make her not mad, or angry, or hurt. I heard her voice, and boy, I got happy for a minute cuz I thought she was happy. Then I got sad, cuz she was hurt. I didn't mean to keep what happened with Erin a secret. I'd actually forgotten about it. I mean, okay, I hate excuses and all excuses are forms of explanations as is vice versa. But I need to say all of this for ME and if read, T too. Everything was so..odd that week. It was a game bell. I'd been sitting with Lauren and Kimberly. And Lord knows, that girl is SUCH a goody-goody. If I could, I wouldn't have even let her in on the fact that I was bi. But..((someone)) already has told her.Anyway, I would never in my LIFE do anything in front of that girl. But, there she was. My problem. I call Erin my problem because she's always bringing drama for me. Never with a Solution either. My Friends are My anti-Problem. Anyways, I was talking to Saadia, who happened to be by Erin and we were whispering, and I would turn sometimes and whisper with Lauren. And we'd talk about Kim and stuff. And Carooq because Mark was there, and everything. Donovan was sitting by me. Who, was influencing me. Well, anyway, Erin wrote me a note asking me what was up between us. I was like, nothing. Nothing has been since all that shyt went down, and you flocked like a peguin. And she was like, What's that sposed to mean?! And She kept calling me to talk to her. Well, I really didn't because I hate moving when I'm watching a basketball game, especially around guys, but I did. And I was sucking my lil lollipop and having a grand ole time. Right up until when Erin got mad and snatched it out of my mouth. Well, that's when everything happened. She said, gimme a kiss and I'll give it back. I said, I don't want it bad enuff. She said, gimme a kiss. And I said, that's alright. Then, the go-go started playing. So I jumped up because I was going to dance. But she snatched me back down, and Saadia went to slide down for something. Well, then everyone stood up to see the people beating their feet and Erin says, "Gimme a kiss, and I'll give it back." I turned the other way, so I didn't have to look at her. I hate saying no to people. She took me the other way, grabbed me by my face. And BAM. Kissed ME. Well anyway, that's the truth. Not an excuse. Not an explanation. That's the truth the whole truth, and nothing but the truth so help me...I love T. And I wouldn't do that. ESPECIALLY WITH ERIN! Anyway, now I should say the truth about why I never said anything: everything was going on. Everything slammed so quickly down around the 18th.I planned to tell her though. That's the thing. I felt guilty. Because this is the ONLY secret I've EVER kept from her. SO it was hurting me to keep it. But, well, I didn't. Every time I got a chance she was so happy, or I was so happy. Or we were both happy. And then, she got sick, and then, everything started going sour. And then, it was never the right time. I don't know. That's not an excuse. Or an explanation. But idk. It's a reason. Well, that's all I can say right now. I'll be here again to say about EVERYTHING that happened today. :-(