I don't know. Everything has changed in my life. I remember when I could think like I was in a movie and watching it as it happened. I don't even remember the day that stopped. I just woke up one day after it had and was like, whoa. I'm not like that anymore, I've got control! I felt so much better when I was finally able to say that. It was a relief. A really big relief. And I was happy. Then I remember TaNeisha coming along. She was great too. I remember hating Vanessa. I don't really know when I stopped. I know I have though. I say I hate so many people,but hate really isn't in my heart. Try as I may. Because trust me, I really have it out for Little Miss Sara. But I don't hate her. I can't. IDK. I don't know why I can't force myself to talk about what happened today. It just isn't right. I talked to Megs about it, but that's all I have time for. Megan. Megan and TaNeisha. After all, I'm relaxing, aren't I? TaNeisha is never around. Never at home. Never there. It bothers me, but not as much as it used to. When did that stop? Why? Megan is kinda keeping me laughing. I miss her. Maybe I'll ask her if she wants to sneak out tonyte, just to do it. Hell, what've I got to lose? Nothing. Anyways, I can't remember if I told yall yesterday that I'm heading to South Carolina on Thursday. I'll be back by Saturday, probably. Well, ya know, maybe something great'll happen and I'll have this fantastic journal entry. ::Looks doubtful:: Don't hold ur breathe on it though, you might die. It's been raining, so I've been pretty relaxed. Maybe I'll write a poem. Once I start, I never stop..so maybe I'll write POEMS. Er something.--P0rN StaR