So, Alex IMs Monica out of the blue, and says nothing except: Tell her I still love her. And of course, Monica knows he's talking about me. So she goes, Well, then, why did you break up with her? And he's all, b/c of wrestling season, it's too much to have a gf too. And of course, Monica tells me, and I'm just SO darn heartbroken b/c I just..I'm SO confused. And I'm so scared b/c I don't want him to hurt me more than he already has. And he IMs me later and is all, "hey" and I was just like, "hi" and I just..idk. I'm not patient, so I go, Well, you still love me? And what is actually 7 minutes, feels like 7 centuries..and he comes back and is all, yeah. And I was just like...why are you doing this?? And he's all doing what? And I really didn't go on with that question too much. I just feel like, he dumped me for wrestling..wasn't that enough? Does he HAVE to tell me he still loves me and like..idk, hurt me AGAIN?? And I left him a message saying how I hate when we argue, and how I love him too, and I miss him, and I just don't think it's fair. I don't think that this is fair b/c I love him and I don't see why wrestling should hurt us. Sure, I won't see him as much, but afterall, I did move about 35 minutes away from him anyway, so we weren't going to see each other EVERYDAY anyway...I just, I don't think it's fair...b/c this is really starting to hurt me. Anyway, I'm off to, idk. Reflect and maybe read a little before bed. Nyte Readers. -- .x.bunni.x.