Doesn't that entry sound like a Elementary book er something? Well, anyway, I called T tonight, and I had told her I had to talk to her. And Then I kinda got scard. And she was all, well what do I have to do? Read it in your journal? At first, I felt really bad, because I felt like I more than betrayed her, and then I felt like she'll never really trusted me, and then I was like, well f*k it! Because it's like, I don't feel like I should feel like shyt b/c of other crap thats happened in the past! And besides, I can't tell her about Brian. I mean, why have crap happen that doesn't have to happen? And now I feel like T is right, and I feel like crap. I think she's purposely making me feel like crap b/c she knows i need to get it off my shoulders and can't tell her yet. So she expects this. I hate this. I hate her for doing this! I hate whoever reads this b/c...I feel like I suck! :-(! SCREW THIS LIFE!