I remember when me and my sister were younger, and we'd get mad. I remember in North Carolina, when she used to braid my hair and tell me she'd adopt me. I thought I was safe then. I thought it'd actually happen that way. Now I realize, every promise she makes, isn't always what happens. In fact, she rarely keeps her word. It's okay, cuz I still love her. My sisters and I whole plan in life was to leave my mom. Even though, all of them weren't her kids. Well, at least, that was their plan. And, don't get me wrong, it's mine too. But they never really included me. They called me Mama's girl. They've grown out of it now. Even though, sometimes, when I make a face, they say, you're the spittin image of Jeri. I tell them, screw them. But my sister, the one all blood to me. She always made me feel better. Since North Carolina, she's told me, even when I was in AZ that she'd save me when she turned 18. She'd adopt me. Even if she didn't have enough money. She was juss a kid, and I was juss a kid. And we were both kids. Living in fantasy. But now, still yet, my heart breaks because I know it'll never happen. And it pisses me off too. Cuz now, my Mom kicked my sister out today, she's 17 now, turning 18 in March, (We haven't talked about adopting me, YET) and I'm really mad. Cuz I'm in this House of Evil alone. And, I mean, Sarah understands what I mean by that. I wish she was here now. But...if you know what was happening, you'd understand why I honestly CAN'T live here alone. And still yet, I do. I juss wanna go away. It's Not Fair I kept tryin to tell her Don't grow up so fast You'll wake up one day realizing Everything you worked for, is in the past Baby listen to me, Don't grow up so fast It's like my words were lingering, But they juss didn't last I was screaming, I was yelling But all the while, My words were failing Now I'm here all alone Something told me to hold on Now I stare out the window Cuz I'm too scared to run But I wonder where she's at I wonder if she even cares But now all I do is scream Cuz this feeling..it isn't fair...