{151.} Let You Know I'm Alive

by cry
Listening to: Dreams- Game
Feeling: alive
All I can say is that I am alive. I'm making my diary private again. Friends Only. Sorry everyone else, I'm tired of people at school reading it. So, sorry. I feel unworthy of being loved. The people that love me, I don't love them back. I just feel my life is becoming lifeless, worthless, unreal. I feel like I hate to feel like that because life gets a little hard but its true. I don't feel like I can do this anymore, I miss Alex so much again..and its weird because I was really okay when I was modeling to get him off my mind..now there is nothing. I don't want all the other guys. I just want to be happy like Becca, like Shan Bear, like Tiffy...everyone around me is so happy that they are oblivious to my misery. And I feel incredibly bad for being so SELFISH..for being so self centered and I can't help it. That's what makes it so terrible. *I'M HONESTLY HAPPY FOR THEM* I just am..sad. I love you all but I just, need a break from people in general. South Carolina this summer is welcomed. It's something to definetly keep my mind off of next year and...guys. I'm so...dead in my own eyes. I see no life to myself anymore... 15 Days before Summer. .x.Aloaryn.x.
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once again, our lives are lining up.

one of joe's ex's is somehow reading this, even though she doesn't have one. hopefully.
but anyway, yeah.
ahaha girl your comments made me LAUGH! literally! oh that was great. haha making it illegal for me to watch movies. i havent talked to you in FOREVER girl! and im sorry i believe you and your friend are wrong, mexicans do it way better. lmao jk. luv ya.
Ha. Thanks. I try my best. I would also like to thank the academy... Ha. Joking. She is pretty pissed. My brother told me I wasn't allowed to take it any further. He says since I have my phone there's no need to get money for it. Damn that lady. Peace kid. xoxo

Laine
haha thanks. i think. I haven't talked to you in forrrever...how've ya been?
hey hun. yea keno and kenan are the same person. hehe keno is like a nickname. half of my entry is in Bosnian. but its not even all that important. these girls that are like 3 years younger than me always talk shit about me, so i was a bit pissed off. his ex like hates me. (which is understadable) hehe. watever..they bring so much drama its like pathetic. anywayzz..keep ur head up girl. gettin away for the summer will probably be the best. mwa*
I work in a mall. At a shoe store. Lol. Sounds lame, but its so much fun. The people I work with are amazing, and thats why I love it.
hmm..i dont know but i love it to!