My family has a lot of girls. I'm a girl. My Dad wanted a boy. I was his last hope. And, I wanted to make him happy, so I was tomboyish. It lasted all of about 10-11 years. The last 3-4 sucked for him. I can see in his eyes he wants something for me. He never was one to say exactly how he wanted his kids to be. He's pretty happy with us all though. Although, I'm happy to say that we have lots of screw ups. I am one myself. YAY! Yuh, right. I'm not perfect. It's just that I'm as close as anyone's came. So anyways, he's pretty cool with us all. Except, it seems he sees everyone in me. We all have about as split and far away personalities as you can get. And I approximate about 7-9 of us. I dont feel like counting. Either/or we make him really happy. Aww side bar, they make him really happy! I'm like the one who doesn't fit. Not exactly the Ugly Duckling, but not sure if I'm the Spot of our Dalmations. Either way, he sees something else in me. Like I drive him in a sane hell. Purgatory really. I know my Dad doesn't favor me. He listens though. My mother hasn't heard a word I've ever said. Just her words. Although, I know my Dad...he probably can't stop thinking bout muh sisters. I'm different. I accept that. I just don't think he can. Maybe later he will... Clockwork falls to a clock...but what if you lose an hour or the day? Is it clockwork of the day we pick up? Or habit? There's a saying that old habits die hard. How can a old habit die if we work as clockwork...? I didn't know that there were 29 days of February this year. Surprise. Always. I speak out my ass somedays. Today is one of those days. If you've ever cried for no reason, just memories...you'd now how it feels when you can't. Maybe you don't. Maybe it's ticking away at you....or maybe it's just me. Haha. Maybe it's just me.... 2nd Side bar- Wanna know how I feel? Questionable. I haven't been baptized. So I can't really give up Christianity for lent. Check out Fall...and Stay Down for that one. But, yet still, I look at the Bible. Perhaps, I'll become a Bible Thumper, God pray for me. Anyways, in first Timothy 2:12...maybe thats why we have no women Presidents and women suck so much. Because God and Jesus were one minded and never thought of what women contributed. Heck, a virgin made Christ. So...don't we get credit? Last Side Bar- I'm so hungry. I haven't eaten all day. The foods done. I smell it. Shantelle says I look hungry. I eat plenty. Watch me go eat now...