I feel bad that I have to write in this thing twice in one day. My best friend doesn't even understand. I'm beginning to think I'm psychotic! No one is here, and I just wanna die right now. Not becuz of what just happened. But what happened could bite muh ass too. No, I wanna die because I feel like I'm crazy. And I'm honestly sick of this. DIE. JUST DIE. anything. I want just anything to die. I want to scream, but it isn't "lady like" I want to dig at my skin and pull out my hair, but it isn't "calming" I want to kick the doors and pull off the pillows but it "isnt me". What is me? Cuz this feeling right now, it isn't suiting. I have homework, I can't focus. I want to cry, no tears. I want suicide, no knives and no roofs tall enough. I want to die, no fuckin COFFIN! God. This is what just happened: L8deeBugg15: long time no see Miss Sara S4Clark: hey, whos this?k S4Clark: hello? L8deeBugg15: aww, Sara. Hurts my feelings, but then again, when did I ever give a damn about you? L8deeBugg15: Auriel L8deeBugg15: er Ta'Lesha..w/e S4Clark: oooo S4Clark: sorry hunni L8deeBugg15: yuh L8deeBugg15: It's okay S4Clark: how r u doin? L8deeBugg15: Tired S4Clark: aww S4Clark: y? L8deeBugg15: and you? S4Clark: im ok L8deeBugg15: Haven't slept for awhile, so Im a bitch, but then again, you always said I always was S4Clark: lol L8deeBugg15: The close relationship we had... S4Clark: wat u mean? L8deeBugg15: That we didn't like each other L8deeBugg15: Sarcasm S4Clark: lol L8deeBugg15: haha, yeah L8deeBugg15: So anyways, what have you been up to lately? S4Clark: nothin busy seein my sons dad and T L8deeBugg15: why her? S4Clark: cuz im wit her again L8deeBugg15: great about the sons dad thing L8deeBugg15: Yuh L8deeBugg15: Are you psychotic? S4Clark: im wit both of them L8deeBugg15: I mean..sorry L8deeBugg15: Do you have issues? Since when? S4Clark: i dont have issues L8deeBugg15: And she knows that you're with both of them? L8deeBugg15: No S4Clark: ya L8deeBugg15: Do you smoke bad weed? S4Clark: no L8deeBugg15: Yeah you do L8deeBugg15: Have to S4Clark: i havent smoked in a long time L8deeBugg15: hmm..okay L8deeBugg15: So let me get this straight, you've been with T S4Clark: dont start L8deeBugg15: for never L8deeBugg15: And she knows that you're with them both S4Clark: ya L8deeBugg15: I hadn't started yet S4Clark: bye if u r gonna L8deeBugg15: Why do you people always want to tell me, "dont start" before I EVER start?! L8deeBugg15: Not yet, I need to stop laughing first L8deeBugg15: Then we'll talk about this L8deeBugg15: Okay, so let us assume that you are telling me the truth L8deeBugg15: Okay? S4Clark: i promise on my son im wit them both!! S4Clark: i dont lie on my baby L8deeBugg15: Christ, Child L8deeBugg15: You shouldn't put your child in this L8deeBugg15: What is up with you people. First the girl gonna tell me she got cancer like I give a damn. Not you, Tiffany. Then you tell me you put it on your kid. Thats you, not me. And then...o God. L8deeBugg15: Okay, so you're telling the truth S4Clark: ya i am hun L8deeBugg15: Just flow with me here, okay S4Clark: why? ur being rude L8deeBugg15: Not yet L8deeBugg15: I mean, no I'm not. S4Clark: ya huh L8deeBugg15: Nuh uh L8deeBugg15: Prove it! S4Clark: f it bye L8deeBugg15: You're such a mean person! Okay, S4Clark is Sara. T says she's BEEN broke up with that girl. But as you read in Walking Away..is it true?! idk. Anyway, I'm L8deeBugg15, did yall get muh sarcasm with her the whole time? What am I supposed to do? Lay back and let it roll? Cuz that's not hittin with me. I guess the best thing to happen to me right now, is to be able to yell. At a computer who can't yell back. No one cares. I feel alone right now. Despite everything I stand for, I just want to tell the world I hate it. Tell Dwayne I love him. Tell Dwayne I could always be with him. Hell, T doesn't give a fuck. So why waste energy?! Why waste energy on any fucking one?! FUCK THIS SHIT! FUCK THE WORLD! They don't like me, well fuck them too!