i think i just lost a pretty good friend as a result of my recent depressed state. or at least i've just been told that a girl who was my friend now totally fucking hates me. i suppose i did totally fucking take her down in a drama lesson, but it's not my fault either, i'm an agressive person and the drama teacher was telling us to be viscious. and then the girl wanted to quit drama (on a totally unrelated matter - yeah right!!). oh well. i shaved off my goatee for my mom (not really, my surrogate mom (in a sense) told me i should give it a go and tell my mom i did it for her as it would make her feel better). i now can't look in a mirror without hating what i'm seeing. oh well. i keep having wierd dreams about shawn from slipknot, jonathan davis and a red cd player. the time on my computer reads 6:66 and i don't know what the fuck is going on, and when i log on AOL, it's like, welcome to AOL, the time is six sixty six. fucking posessed evilness, seriously, it's fucking wierd. oh well. *sigh* i best be on my way. later people.