So yes. School sucks and everyone knows it. So does Geometry I got back two quizzes today. (the very first ones in that class as well) I failed them both with 57's and now I'm not sure that I want to tell my mom or not. What the hell is my problem? Am I too stupid to understand the easy stuff in Geometry? Or is it stupid carelessness I make on quizzes and tests from the rushed feeling? I have no idea if I should tell my mom in a hope to get a tutor from someone because there's no way in hell I am going to fail Geometry and then retake it and only get to Algebra 2 before I graduate and summer school and night school won't get rid of the grade on my report card they just help me get into my junior year. I feel like pulling my hair out now because yearbook isn't turning out what I wanted it to be. I have a test in Biology tomorrow over a whole bunch of shit that I should know but don't and I can barely understand what he's saying half the time. I just want it to all go away and never have to show back up at school again. I'm sick of these labels that are all around me. I'm sick of my classes where I know no one, but then again I wouldn't know many people since I can count all the friends I have on my fucking fingers, my mom ordered a book on how to be popular and I see it on the steps every time I pass and it was addressed to me on the envelope, I watch my brother have friends over and I just sit on the computer all weekend talking to online friends that don't know me or how I look and probably it's for the best. I stare at myself in the mirror and questions of 'Why can't I be like her? Or why can't I just be average weight and not fat?' come into my head and I sit awake at night tossing and turning with not being able to find any sleep, finally closing my eyes at 2 knowing I have to wake up in 5 hours or so to just start another agonoizing day at school, my life is the same, every day I wonder why I'm still here and every day I get the same answer, the world I see around me is full of religions that I want nothing to do with, the only thing I have to get away from it all is sitting in front of my computer screen with my music blaring.