Like a vampire bat, hanging like this, hanging on your back, I'm helpless again. --- School days left until May 28: 29 days.. Today is the day of Monday, exciting yes? It is at least 80 today, but it felt like 90 when I was walking home. Maybe it would help to not be wearing all black, but fuck do you want me to wear bright colors? Because three frickin people made some comment about my ensemble today and Arlene even asked if I was going to a funeral. What does it matter what color I choose and do not choose to wear day in and day out? I apologize for not liking colors now either! I apologize for not being 'normal' for your liking! I apologize for having friends that criticize me openly no matter what I do! We had to take the Biology EOCT[End Of Course Test] for those of you in Georgia High Schools you would know what it was, or the CRCT in middle and elementary schools. Before they said that you have to pass this stupid frickin standarnized state test to gain credit for that class NOW they are going to put your final scores on your transcript for when you go to college. -sigh-I was never a one for tests and then standarnized tests are much worse because it is going over everything from both semesters. Let alone the fact that it says END OF COURSE when we still have six more weeks of school left. So why in the bloody hell are we taking the test NOW? And because of these tests we have to go on block scheduling for two weeks, that is 2 and 1/2 hours in one class and then an hour and a half in the next and 6th and 7th periods each day stay the same. I apologize for complaing. I apologize for bitching. I apologize for making this a big deal when really it is not, according to Dana. One good thing of today besides me not having any idea what half the shit the test was about and getting wrote up for talking when I was not the ONLY one who was doing it. We had to go to lunch with Geometry today and seeing as how I do have few friends whom did not have the same C lunch with myself I went and ate by myelf which I found nothing wrong with. And halfway through the 30 minute time period these two girls from my math class come over and ask if I want to go and sit with them. ^.^ Why the fuck could more people not be like them in this place? You know how much easier people could be getting along.. I mean, I did not really talk that much as they spoke of driving and work, both of which I have no experience in thanks to my lack of age compared to other sophomores. But really, I think that is the first time anyone ever offered for me to sit with them since I moved here in March of 3rd grade. ^.^ Another fun factoid: I have gone swimming in our pool for three days straight. It is awesome to just jump in even though it is frickin freezing, but after the numb feeling takes over it is quite enjoyable due to the immense swing of heat that has came over this weather. I slept with three fans on last night and still it did no good, at all. Yes, the lack of sleep keeps adding with each night. And with it comes the lack of appetite. Maybe if I just stop sleeping and the nausea feeling to my stomach continues as well as the headaches I may lose weight finally just by picking at food. May you think, because without it we are nothing... -_- My body is cut and broken, it's shattered and sore, my body is cut wide open...