Again and again they blend into one, my father the morning pushes through my moonlight love... Days until I will be in Philadelphia: Two days - Sunday - Bloody hell.. too short.. The week has finally came to a close and the only thing I have to look forward to would be seeing Laur - my cousin and the only reason I am going up to see the father for Spring Break since I will not be attending that house during the summer break. Yes, so her and myself plan to be all "hanging out" to coin what she said. I actually got my father to say yes to allowing me to go to college with her for one day as well. Woot, sexy college guys! Yeah buddy.. -rolls eyes- I feel like going up to someone in this household, any of them for no reason to be given at this point and just strangling them while beating their heads into the wall until they are no longer able to see properly. Actually doing that to anyone at this current moment would probably satisfy some of the anger needs I must meet. Last night, I stayed up to at least 3:30 working on my Saddam research since the poster I completed looked like fucking shit I might as well try and do some good on the paper. I had this project since the first day of the semester and I only really started on everything Thursday night, the day before it was due. Yes, it is a beautiful thing to put off everything to the last minute, I never used to do that before. This year has proven to be a downfall in everything about me. Imagine that... My mother read everything above this point, not what I wanted her to do at all and I hope to Depp that she did not memorize this site as then I will have to confront her with everything in the past. I do not think I will ever be able to tell anyone but myself, in some ways, my exact thoughts and emotions. I am not one to use words to say things, hell I can barely go up to a salesperson in a store and ask them the question I would like to. I leave now in hopes to go find something to go occupy my time with, as avoidance is something I have come to master, I will carry it out again tonight as the so-called "friends" in my life are beginning to prove the reason why I have so few in my life to begin with. I intend to post on Sunday before I am to leave on a plane. Adios las personas.. May you think because without it we are nothing... -_- My mind fights with the sparkles in the corner of my eyes...