The dying will discard the wish to live... Secret Window finally released: Three days --- Ah, yes so now while I am at it I may as well inform those of the bad events that ocurred, now not only am I the failure almost all the plans I have had for the next two months have collapsed as well. The same as my mental state. That could be expected though.. We went to Stevie B's yet again today and that all went well as there were no familiar faces at the placeand there was some sexy guy in a beanie that sat right behind us this time. Woo woo. Then John raced Nick to the car for Nick had called the front seat and he ran off and then came back and started lashing out at John and myself all over one frickin seat. Then we went to Wal-mart, well they did, I stayed in the car and listened to the music which somehow manages to keep me sane. All he had to do was get some soles for his stolen shoes and some spray stuff and that took 30 or so minutes and then he went into Sports Authority for him to get shorts and I swear it was another 30 minutes before I went in and all he had picked out was one fucking pair of shorts so while I waited I broke down into tears yet again and then after that I was so fucking pissed off that I just marched inside and started cussing and screaming at John and my mom for doing this as I had an essay to do to pass my history test[which I think I failed the multiple choice part today] Yes so I go from crying to screaming and yelling and angry beyond all limits. Oh I am shutting the fuck up now as really, no one cares and if they do, I have no words for them, really. Now, at least Sunday was not that bad nor was Monday. Sunday- Went to Media Play and bought: The Used, Mushroomhead, Twisted Method, Coheed and Cambria, and two old AFI compact discs since all the ones that I had I lent to someone for them to burn but knowing my luck they moved and never gave those CDs back so I now have to replace them all. Mark then came over and I expected the worst to happen but instead it was just the opposite and for the first time in two years of my knowing him we did not argue about anything, he did not use his agressiveness on me and I think I actually laughed at him two or three times. A very rare and probably never going to happen emotion that he will never see again in his years of knowing me, which I hope is cut short soon just in case this day was just because of the new girlfriend in his life. -sigh- Again, I am a bore. Nothing occurs to me for anything to make sense or be of some interest to others. So I leave you now to go make up some bull-shitted opinion essay for my history class. Played today at the Depp Film Festival brought to you by the lovely host-Jess: Sleepy Hollow -May you think, for without it we are nothing. -_- I wish...that you could share the love you'd shared with others with me