Walk alone. I stare at the foot prints of my life. I think I lost you when I began to run away so far. So far away from home. Your approval was the only crown I seek. I no longer doubt myself. Too long I've walked in shadows of my worst enemies. Was it worth the game to lose our purities? --- Drivers Ed classes started on Monday, two days down and only three more to go are the only positive words I can use in referance to that class. It is six hours spent in the room with the thirty minute lunch break and the one fifteen minute break at 9:45 and another at 1:00. The class starts at 8:00 lunch is from 11:00 - 11:30. You tell me how much "fun" it is. It is exactly like your typical class period though, you have the group of idiots who never stop talking and when they are talking it is about nothing intelligent at all, then you have the group of girls who never stop talking and act all friendly to the teacher. Then you have me, the person who sits in the back and says nothing; that is, if I am not sleeping. Hah. I feel asleep today when we were supposed to be reading the chapter about drunk driving I just put my head down and drifted into dreams of a land of candy? Three more days... My hair? It is to be dyed before I return back to school in Twenty days. The color it is going to be now? Purple! I am SO cool and you all know it. I saw Anchorman with my mother on Sunday, it was not as funny as I thought, but man that Brick or Breck weather guy made the whole entire movie. LOUD NOISES!!!!!! I go around yelling that when I drop something or get mad at the cat for making something fall or throwing up. Haha. Because again I am SO cool and that is the only explanation behind it. I want to be all serious about this entry but my mood at this moment will not let me do so otherwise so lets it make it a survey in addition to my continuation of the AFI party for Erika? Maybe the complete boredom and having to wake up at 6:45 has gotten me to be all "wanting to spin in my chair instead of typing" mood. Who knows! Erika [idespair] HAS RETURNED FROM AUSTRALIA! YAY!! So before she left I told her I was going to give her an AFI party, and an AFI party she shall get because why? Jess is cool! WELCOME BACK, ERIKA! I HOPE YOUR TIME IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY WAS SUPER-DI-DUPER FANTASTIC!! The AFI music is playing all night long in honor of you and though it isn't the guys or anything; you can just look at yours and mine header pics and revel in that instead. GUMMMI BEARS TOO!! And Liz, when you come back from Florida I am going to do something of this same sort, just for YOU! And also for Nadia when she comes back from that horrible place. Why? YOU know why! ...The survey I stole from Liz... [EMO]. xx.Do you enjoy depressing music? Uhm, define depressing music. Arlene calls AFI depressing music. Moneca calls Muse and The Cure depressing music. I guess I do then? xx.What makes you sigh? Boredom... xx.How many hours a day, on average, do you spend feeling sorry for yourself? 24 hours, yes, even when I am sleeping. ... xx.Who or what always brings you down? People, in general. There are exceptions. xx.Do you wear glasses? Nope. 20/20 vision right here. xx.What frightens you? Bugs, frogs, snakes, lizards, all of those cold-blooded creatures freak me out. Was I supposed to give an "emo" answer there? Fine.. people scare me. -goes and cries in corner- xx.Do you wear sweaters all the time? I do not even own one sweater. xx.What makes you tick? Uhm... ? xx.How many times has your heart been broken? My heart isn't broken, silly. xx.What do you think of Dashboard Confessional? I actually had the CD burned for me [didn't want it] but then I played frisbee with Friskie with it. I would toss it, she would move it with her paws in weird directions, if we were lucky it would be near me. I know that stupid "Vindicated" or whatever song it is for Spiderman because of my new listening to the radio late at night after Conan. .[PUNK]. xx.Tell me about that time you broke that law! I didn't... xx.What or who pisses you off? ppl u who alwayz talk like this and want 2 talk 2 u and get all bit** on u when u tell them to fu** off bc they didnt do anythin to be mean they just wanted to chat but like they dont say anythin but lol after every thing u type or say things that u can never understand xx.Would you rather date a sissy or a homebody? Hah! That reminds of the Bert is my homeboy shirt! Or was it homebody? I don't know, but I want it. xx.Sex or drugs or breaking stuff? Breaking things while having SEX. ..... xx.The Clash or The Ramones? Neither xx.What do you think about Anarchy? Stupid xx.Tell me about a prank you played! I'll pass, your not cool enough to know. xx.Do you do things that are "bad for your body"? Not as much.. xx.How many times have/were you kicked out of that place?! What place? I was kicked out of a bathroom once for goofing off inside it. We were having a water fight at the co-ed bathroom. Is that that place? xx.Are you in trouble all the time? yea my days are spent in the office. pfft. I am sleeping all the time. .[GOTH]. xx.Do you want to die? Sure, why not? xx.What do you think about graveyards? People are put into fancy boxess, there is a funeral, fancy box is lowered into ground, dirt piled on top and slowly grass starts to grow there and the grave is forgotten about twenty years later. xx.Do you write poetry often? No. xx.How much black clothing do you own? Damn, I knew this question was coming. The only other color I own is red and my pink/black chucks and low top pink converse. xx.What type of makeup do you wear? Eyeliner, mascara, sometimes there is a little bit of glitter on the eyelids but not often. xx.What do you think about pain? Its better than love... xx.Masochism or sadism? masochism xx.How do you feel about the rest of the world? Do I care? I am not going to see half of the world so I live on it, and the human race is doomed 2000 years from now. xx.Do you cry often? Yes. Isn't this supposed to be under emo? xx.What do you think about vampires? If you don't know just by how I sign my name, then you will not know how I feel about them. .[METAL]. xx.How messy are you in general? Haha. I started bleeding because I stepped on an unknown object in my room last night. Yeah, its messy.. xx.Do you bang your head on things repeatedly? I already get enough headaches in one day, I do not need to get one purposely, thank you. xx.What do you think of mullets? Jade pulled off a sexy mullet looking thing once. It was odd looking, but only Jade made it look like cool hair. xx.When did you start drinking alchohol? Last summer. xx.Do you go to concerts often? If I had money I would. xx.What bands rock your pants off? Do you really want to know? xx.What do you think about violence? That there is a hotline for it... xx.Who or what makes you homicidal? When I play songs backwards since that is what everyone on the AFI boards are doing and it "tells" me to worship the devil or kill myself. xx.Worship Satan or practice black magic? NO xx.How wild are you in general? Wild in the bed, hell yeah! .[GRUNGE]. xx.Are you wearing any clean clothes right now? They just got out of the dryer at 6:30 this morning xx.How often do you do the laundry? When there is nothing left to wear.. xx.Do you wear flannel shirts a lot? I don't even own one. xx.When was the last time you showered? This morning xx.Do you speak clearly? Uhm.. yeah? xx.Are you a lazy person? The laziest xx.Do you play any instruments? I wish.. xx.Who or what do you rant about a lot? Everything xx.Empathy or Sympathy? Empathy xx.What do you think about Nirvana? they're overrated, and if Kurt Cobain hadn't died, they wouldn't be half as famous. [Sorry Liz, I liked what you said and couldn't change it.] .[INDIE]. xx.What makes you different from the rest of them? Uh.. I think before speaking? xx.Who or what makes you bitter? Elitists! xx.What was the last big decision you made? I haven't made a big decision, or any decision for that matter without changing my mind thirty times. Would deciding I want a lip piercing for my birthday no matter what anyone says count as a decision? xx.Are you a happy-go-lucky type of person? NO xx.What do you think about conformity? I conform to no one! Well, okay, I conform to Moneca's fat God because he beat my God that failed to carry his message to me. [Not serious] xx.How hard do you work to get what you want? Not hard enough... xx.What do you resent? Ask me later... xx.Why might some people consider you to be an asshole? I don't listen to what they have to say/suggest, "I hate everything and everyone," I refuse to take part in group activities, I won't let you win an argument if I know your wrong. xx.Do you trust others? No xx.Are you a loyal friend? No.. .[RAP]. xx.Do you live in the ghetto? Fuck yes. o.O xx.Have you ever even held a gun before? A water gun. xx.How much bling do you own? Uh. I have a watch that changes colors with every second. xx.Would you rather have your best friend be a wangsta or a wigga? Say you wangsta! And you need to stop frontin'! xx.Would you rather be bustin' caps or rollin' joints? I rather be bustin' yo' ass! xx.Big butts or big boobs? ........ xx.What's your best pickup line? Hey xx."Fo' Sho" or "Yeah, son"? Yeah, son I fo' sho' the best cat on this block. xx.What race are most of your friends? I ain't no racist! xx.Ever been to prison? No .[POP]. xx.Who or what makes you so excited you piss your pants? AFEEE Bwaha. xx.Prep or Yuppie? What the deuce is a yuppie? xx.How much money do you spend on bad music? Bad music? None.... xx.Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter? JT! xx.How many of your friends still listen to NKOTB? NKOTB? -thinks- OHHHH! Uh. No one!! xx.Do you like mainstream music? Not really; there are always exceptions though. XX.you want to be a pop diva? Too cool for that attitude biotch. xx.How many times, on average, do you say "like" in a sentece? I avoid it. xx.OMIGOD or OMG? Neither xx.Ditsy or just plain stupid? I lack what one calls common sense. Would you rather... Marry someone really old for $5 million hoping your spouse will die soon, but he or she doesn't -OR- get divorced from someone who wins the lottery a week after the divorce is finalized? -_- I won't wear the crown of thorns. Won't wear the mask of Judas. I'll never be who you want me to be. You'll never see the beauty I see. Mark me for death. Mask me for torture. I hope you see my face on your death bed. You played the role of the angel. Now you'll se my face in hell. You fooled my mind with your selfish ambition...