Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for you. Do you like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today, it's all for you. --- School days until May 28: Six fucking days... Lucky seniors last day is tomorrow, oh how I look forward to that year. Since I have nothing fun and exciting to report on my own life besides the fact that I got my Despair Faction stuff today!!!! I saw it outside my garage when I came home and squealed with a scream before running to pick up the box, I actually kissed it and hugged the box and started jumping up and down around the house, completely forgetting about the bad day that I encountered. How I enjoyed the feeling that overcame me for that short brief moment. I also sympathize with those who do not have younger brothers like myself, there is not a day that goes by where I cannot just laugh to the point of tears at something they did or said. Eh, now I am being a tad to loving and other such happy googling emotions, so this entry is devoted to.. -drum roll- Jess' rants! Rants - the smarter term used instead of complaining since I was told by several people that I do that too much so instead I will say, I'm not complaining I am ranting. I am mucho clever, you cannot deny me that. Bwaha. To the point... Rant Number One: People who just continously act unintelligent, I mean there are people out there who really do have mental and learning disabilities, but I am talking about the stupid typical little blonde-highlighted ditzy cheerleader kind of thing where the only reason I can think for them to be acting like they know not a thing would be for the constant attention of their classmates and teachers. What other reason is there? Honestly... Rant Number Two: If all men are created equal as it says so on the Constitution or the Declaration of Independence or both or some stupid fucking American History document that people base their amendements on and all. Yeah, I do not take American History until my Junior year which does not start until August 9 so its not my fault I do not know which document it is! But, if that is the case than why did the whole gay marriage issue come up? Are homosexuals no more equal than myself? Why not just compare them to the mentally ill, and even someone with downs syndrome or autism is still perfectly legal to marry, then why the fuck are people of the same sex love interest not??!! If the President, whether it be Bush[Please No!] or Kerry with his wife being the runner of Heinz ketchup, that is frickin awesome! If gay marriage is made illegal then you might as well call yourselves the biggest discriminator ever. Soon, we will have something like Martin Luther King Jr. again as this obviously does violate civil rights. Oh, I'm sorry if I am an ignorant American who cannot accept diversity and everything must stay the same as it has always been which means no same sex relationships. I asked five people today why they did not support homosexuals and their response? Because the bible tells them that it is wrong. What the fuck is your problem? Every little excuse for what to do or what not to do christians find in some bible. I asked a girl about the death penalty and she quoted the whole eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth part of the bible to me. I did not have time to hear it finished as I walked away before then. Do you all not realize that you were brainwashed since you were a little kid at church that Jesus is real, the bible is real and will explain EVERYTHING about the Earth and that every other religion is WRONG and Christianity is the better of them all. The next person that preaches to me about the Lord and how I should pray to him and attend church and be "changed" and see that church will make me believe again and I won't be so fucking depressed if I realize that Jesus died for me so I should be happy for that reason alone........ -throws object at wall- Never more will I even listen to such bullshit, it happened to me, again, if you did not already catch on. Rant Number Three: This is more to Attila then the others, so just skip this if your name is not Attila Ramirez. I had the picture you sent to me on my binder and some fucking moron cheerleader girl was looking at all the AFI, HIM and Depp pictures and then asked if you were Marilyn Manson and I said with the highest tone of anger/disgust. "No, it is my friend in Michigan who is named Attila and has more intelligence than you will ever have, you stupid twit and cheerleader." She then dropped my binder but said nothing in return but the next day she goes and takes me up to the guidance office for peer mediating, claiming that I ruined her self-esteem and she had cried herself to sleep that night when just at the end of class she was flirting with the same guy she does everyday! What the fuck? My mother then got told that I need to have anger management sessions to keep from offending any more people when I get angered at something they say, even if they do or do not mean it. Stupid blighters and their conspiracy theories. Now I do not just want to be negative the whole time so here will be one rave and then I leave savvy? The one and only Rave: The feeling of conditioned hair. ^.^ My Little Davey, I only call him this because he is a huge AFI fan like me, his hair is long and black like Davey's actually longer in length, he has both of the corners of his lips pierced and he plans to get his arms completely tattooed like Davey. Oh! And most important factor that makes Robert My Little Davey is that he wears eye make-up! I swear that he is perfectly straight, well no, he is bi but nothing wrong with bi guys is there? No, of course not! Yeah, I got to play with his hair in English class today, as I do almost everyday when I am awake. Felt so beautiful. Bwahaha. Now I will be shutting up, too much luvvy-duvvyness, yes I just made up a word. Who cares? You must find the knowledge within yourself, or cease to exist. -_- Please don't ask me what I think, trust me, you don't want to know. Please don't ask me to open up, trust me, trust me, 'cause I can't.