All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company... --- Two long days have passed since the last update, why I speak the obvious! Would you look at that? Go Captain Obvious, also to be known as Jess. I think this will be the entry for myself to just bring in my "other personalities." -slaps knee- Wooo.. do I have a point to this entry? Mitch banged Drew's head into a locker on Monday - five times. Then came the punching, scratching, kicking, threats and Depp knows what else happened while they were on the floor with much of the crowd around them. What is it with the human mind that finds a stupid fight at school to be so amusing? And why, if anything happens do they all chime out in "OOOOOO?" Why would you fight at school to begin with? And why in the bloody hell am I asking these things? Probably because I must ask questions in hopes to get answers - though they will never come will they? So again, why do I bother talking at all. Typing in this at all? When my words are almost always overlooked, the same as what I speak out loud. My friends, the few that they are, look at me as an idiot and how can I prove them wrong? I have no idea - I apologize for lacking some common sense. I apologize for not being the best book smart person alive. I apologize for being a dumbass when it comes to math and to be lucky to be passing at this very moment. I apologize for not being strong. I apologize for lying to everyone. I apologize for my beliefs. I apologize for avoidance. I apologize for the complaints. I apologize I am not the perfect child. I apologize I am fat and ugly. I apologize for being...me! I cried a thousand tears, all of them were saved for you. I caused blood to be drawn by my own hand five times, they were all for you. I had two hours of sleep last night, they were saved for you. You are the others in this world. You are the doubts in my mind, you are the haunting flashbacks, you are the sweaty sleepless nights, you are the state in which I find myself battling with everyday. You are the plague, slowly it eats away at everything in me, then it moves on to find a new host. You needs a new being, could it be the mind of your very own? May you think, because without it we are nothing... -_- The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink.