So after a conversation I had with Arlene who again brought up the fact that I'm always depressed and like to cut myself I'm listing out the things that make me ME. You can either accept it or reject it. I learned that it's way too hard to change yourself for certain people so they'll be happy with you. I've done it for so long that I didn't realize I was doing it. So here's to you, Arlene... no, I'm not depressed all the time, no I don't cut myself anymore and yes, I did cry and show emotion *gasp* when Tom died. Fuck you, you know that? You're a great friend but sometimes you really don't know when you are absolutely wrong and just need to learn to shut up. I am... me. - I cry pretty much over every movie I see. - I still like to watch Disney movies. - I collect stuffed animals and sleep with them. - I still sit in the kids section of Barnes and Noble and read the kids books. - I have a habit of not letting people into my life for fear of being rejected, of being lied to, of crying over them, etc. - I am an extremely reserved person and that's my fault. - I build walls around my emotions, my feelings, myself. - I deny things that happen until I'm forced to face them. - I'll die for most people that I know. - I don't value my relationships enough. - I listen to music, write stories, and watch so many movies to try and escape from the harsh reality of life. - I make things worse than they are because I constantly worry and list out everything that could go wrong. - I love my smile. - I looove slash. [boy/boy] - I have several laughs. - I tend to snort when I laugh really hard. - The best feeling in the world is crying from laughing so hard. - I wish more people would give me a hug. - I complain too much about stupid things, BUT I do something to change what I complain about. - I like to whine... even though it never gets me anywhere. - A lot of things never seem to go right in my life. - I live in t-shirts and jeans. - If it was allowed, I would wear my pjs to school everyday. - I love nail polish and my toe nails are a different every other day. - I curse way too much. - I don't care what people thing about me which sometimes leads to me being out of line and rude. - I get worked up when the people I care about are upset.. I hate it so much and try to do anything I can to have it change. - I hate to see people cry. - I don't want to be married, or have kids. - I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. - I wish I was Hispanic. - I am 'in love' with two Mexican kids in my Spanish 3 class. - I am too cynical sometimes. - I get excited over stupid stuff. - I say 'oh em gee' and 'like whoa' too much. - You'll never know what comes next with me. ... And that is me. Edit: I used to have so many people as friends who would leave me several comments... where have they gone?