So maybe I can resurrect myself and start posting just a little bit more. It'll never be the same because with each entry I'll keep waiting and anticipating her comments and words to be said that always made me feel like that I was listened to for once. But they'll never come again... will I ever be able to get over that fact? Probably not. But I've accepted that and let it be... Most important thing in my life: I got my license! Yeah.. and by this weekend Thomas will have bought a new car and his '98 Sonata will be mine. Mine to drive anywhere I want. When the time comes where I need to get out of the house - I can take it. I love it. So for those who care: I'm back. Running away doesn't make things better. Facing them doesn't always either but I'm tired or cowering away from things that remind me of them. I only want to be happy - is it really too hard to ask. Much love, bitches.