So it's been awhile since the last update... and I've found that the hardest thing about people dying is that it still doesn't seem real some days. I still think of all the things we would be doing right now and then it really does affect me. Like when mail comes for him or when no one calls at 7 in the morning to ask him to come in for overtime. And then I just randomly start crying.. I've cried in Anatomy, Algebra 3 and Pshychology so far. Anatomy it was pretty funny because my car was having some extreme problems on the way to school and I was freaking out about it and I just started crying and couldn't stop. And I was all 'omg. I'm crying over a car' in the bathroom to Jessica and Shani and Jessica said 'I think it's more than the car, dear.' And it really was.. more and more small things seem to bother me more than they should. I don't know why but I get worked up over really small and stupid things now. Attila's one year was also this month and I didn't feel like doing anything for the longest of time. I was just reminded of people who should be here and aren't. David's one year is coming up in November too and again I'll be a wreck. Why am I the one stuck here to endure all of this? In good news... I got my first job at JCPenny and it has officially taken up my weekends since they won't let me work during the weekdays since it's company policy. I mean its good I guess since I get to work 20 hours each weekend and that means 140 dollars without taxes. It'll be a lot better when the store opens [October 2] because then there will be no more stocking the store and carrying boxes to places and all of that 'fun' stuff. I am supposed to be a cashier and then adjust things when I don't have a long line or something like that. But yeah.. that's all I'm going to 'write' for now. I love you Tom, Attila, and David.