okay, so when my friends and i look through sitdiaries, we almost always tell eachother "wow..a lot of people are depressed and just write about sad things in their life.about cutting,drugs..etc." well, this entry might be a little emotional..some people might be thinking 'cant you just write about something HAPPY?'.. well goddammit im always writing good and happy entires, im an ACCEPTION! anyways.. lately i have been feeling just down.like i dont deserve to live,i dont know whyyy im getting this feeling.i just am.i just want to be happy and not so emotional.i want a boyfriend that wont be such a jerk..i want my best friend to live in california, or me live in new jersey.either one would be fine.as long as we were together and laughing and just enjoying life together.i want no drama! i know you cant escape it,but i can try..this entry has no fucking point.so im stopping here.. i miss stefen.