shit fuck. okay so i don't know how i'm going to do it the next whatever days until the 13th comes along. two years and thats all gone. i miss it so much. and tonight is going to be a huge mistake, i feel it already but i don't care. i want it so badly. this isn't going to be good because either he's going to be sweet as hell afterwards or he is going to be a dick. fuck i don't know but i can't wait. i'm dying for the clock to fast forward already and just let it happen. where though and how. this is gonig to be beautiful i'll make it beautiful and make it work. i'll make it fascinating. afterall that one kiss lead to this and now its oging to be perfect. i just want it to be back to normal again but better. i'm going to get ready and just be fuckin bangin. its going to be beautiful !