tonight was bailey's play at her school, she was a tiger in the lion king :] she did soooo gooooodddd! < 333 it was in ventura, so i got to drive there, yay..and then i drove back home. i got on the freeway too, it was pretty scary. the first time my mom didn't even tell me we were going on the freeway, & i couldn't tell because it was dark and i do not know my way around oxnard, but it was fine..it wasn't as bad as i expected it would be...the important part, i got me, my mom and shaynee all home in one piece :] travis said he feels really bad for treating me like shit all the time, and so he told me he was going to write me a letter and then tell me all his feelings so he wouldn't forget. he told me he would stay online just to tell me, and when i get on..it wasn't anything special that he forgot. i guess he was just apologizing at the moment ? i don't know...i know he won't change. he's just going to keep doing this to me...i don't know why i believe in him so much, but i need to come to realization that he's not worth it..if he couldn't change within four months, he's not worth my time..right ? :[ oh, and of coarse he can never call me..nope...but he can definitly ignore me all day, yah..thats pretty cool.. no guy is ever right for me...all my other relationships we barley ever fought, but with travis- thats all i seem to do..anyways, i'm just being me..emotional, and hating it of coarse. i can already tell tomorrow is going to be so lame. ha, and i knowwwww i'll be emotional. eh, who knows..i might just forget about him in the morning. maybe tonight will just be the emotional night where i cry and cry and feel sorry for myself. goodnight.