Tonight couldn't have been more-dramatic. Let's start awhile back, shall we? Well, basically it's not that far back. My mom works with one of her best friends named Tina...Tina's daughter is Lizette. They live abouuuutttt, 3 streets down. And about a week ago, Lizette was at our house and me,Shaynee & her were talking about school, and out of NOWHERE, Lizette goes " Hey, do you wanna see a picture of my bong ? ". and of coarse i was surprised with her, because well-- it was LIZETTE we were talking about ! I asked her if she had really smoked marijuana before, and all that crap. She told me she did and that she already talked to her mom about it as well, so i believed her. Seeing that i love my friends and care about them, i told my mom. Three of my friends have been sent away because they either had problems with drugs or alcohol. And seeing that Tina & My mom are best friends, i couldn't bare to have my moms best friends daugher (( whos family is practically combined with ours )) be taken to rehab. So a few days ago me,my mom and shaynee were all in the car going to Jack In The Box to get dinner, & my mom randomly tells shaynee that tina told her that lizette was telling tina that shaynee terrorizes lizette? OOOOOOOKAY. fucking dummmb. they both terrorize EACHOTHER, & they are kidding around- so why would it matter? We all kinda argued about it seeing that Lizette usually starts the fights, but Shaynee can never stop with it- she is one of those people that always continues with things. Anyways, it ended with me saying smoething like "well, if lizette can tell her mom that shaynee terrorizes her & try to get shaynee in trouble- than she obvisouly has no clue how well i am at this game" And i told my mom about what Lizette had said earlier in my room about a week before this whole thing. My mom was stunned because Tina is the kinda person that tells my mom Everything, and Tina would have kicked Lizettes ass if she foudn out that Lizette was doing something so stupid.The next day, my mom came up to shaynee and myself and tells us that Lizette is in major trouble. She told us that Tina was throwing away everything of 2Pac? that was in Lizettes room--ehhhhh. I felt extremely baddddd. So basically, Lizette had lied abuot her mom knowing that she smokes pot. DUMB! That night i found out Lizette was in SOOO much trouble, and i felt bad because my mom told me that Lizette told Tina that my trust from Lizette was gone. and she felt that i had betrayed her. Which, i felt super bad for. but BETRAY HER? how? I had not the slightest clue she was kidding around & besides, i was trying to help her out. So later on that night i got the courage to walk over to their house- alone and talk about it. I just basically told Lizette that the only reason i told my mom about what she said in my room was because i thought she was being serious. It's not something to joke about with me and she knows that. And the fact that i ASKED her if she was kidding around, and she said she wasn't--she lied. She WAS kidding around. And that pisses ME off because i was taking it serisouly. If she wants friends who don't care about her, then i will leave and not be her friend. Because i CARE about her. If i didn't care about her, i wouldn't have said anything & i would have let her just ruin her life. Tina agreed with everything i said and thought it was extremly stupid for Lizette to say to me. NOT TO MENTION....Lizette has never smoked pot in her life- she said it to look cool. I'm sorry, but to anybody that thinks they look cool, you need to fucking think what you're doing through because it is the most disgusting, unattractive thing ever. Tina was basically just looking at her seenig what she would say, she just looked at the pillow and was like "it was dumb of me....i'm sorry...." and a bunch of this bullshit. And the part that gets to me most, is the fact that she said i'm sorry i said you were racist towards mexicans. i mean, what the fuck.. How can ANYONE be so stupid.? ME? RACIST? are you fucking kidding me. I didn't really freak out on her for saying that, but i was just shocked. Espically seeing that one of my close friends bernnedette, is mexican. her whole family is as mexican as it gets- they live off of berry street for gods sake. (( and for people that live in ventura county, you KNOW berry street...)) and..on top of that, i have tons of mexican friends, my whole dads side of the family is mexican, my moms side of the family is part mexican, which makes me what? at least HALF mexican. I told her flat out that it would make me look like a fcking idiot & a hypocrite if i was racist towards mexicans....yeah, i hate some of her friends that are mexican, but so what? they've been bitches to me for years and have started the most random shit with me and my friends. I like a few of her friends, but what teh fuck. serisouly. she is so fucking immature. I know things are going to be different between us now...which sucks, because awkwardness = horrible. But i guess you just have to go on with life, ntohing else you can do. agh, drama is dumb. besides that crap, summer is almost over and me & Jenns birthday is coming upppppppppppp =] Jenn- 11 days Mine- 26 days hm, a sweet 16 doesn't sound so sweet. friends will argue about why they weren't invited & i don't know...maybe i'll just spend it with a few close friends from camarillo. Like, Christine & Desiree. But then i know that if i do that, Nicole will find out and be bitchy about why i didn't invite her seeing as she just invited me to hurricane harbor with her for HER birthday. But, i was extremly shocked because me and her use to be best friends, & then we just stopped talking...so it was surprising to hear that she wanted me to come. And...what about Nkem? Or Priscilla? aghh. OR....Rachael? BERNNEDETTE? agh. Maybe i WILL just spend it with my family. So much to think about when birthdays roll around & i don't know if i like the drama that comes with it, it kinda gives me a headache. =[ whatever, to hell with itttttt. besides, it's past my bedtime & i think...i'm killing myself with this whole lack of sleep thing. And i doubt any of you kids read this whole entry. I don't doubt Jenn though, she most likely read it all- she is has true dedication =] goodnight.