two entries in one day isn't pathetic, i need to get these bottled up feelings out somehow, right?. i hate how everything hits me all at once, and when it does everything i believe or though was true comes down and it couldn't hit me any harder. i think i really need to watch the secret or somethin, because this can't be happening. its my senior year,i should have best friends and be happy that i'm graduating, but i'm not. i went from the loudest girl in the 07 senior class to the quietest. i hate how much i've changed and everyone, everyone has left me behind. and i hate to sound sorry for myself but fuck off & fuck you. i'm off welbutrin and all those other pills i was on, so i guess it makes sense why i'm such a big mess again. but then again, i never became happy again. and again, this feeling of lonliness surrounds me and it won't go away. i want to drive far away, SO far away. i wish i could right now. blasting my music, and crying my eyes out with the wind blowing in my face not knowing where i'm going, and not giving a shit. i need something right now, i have nothing and i wish that wasn't the case. fuck this im going to sleep, crying once again. fjksdhfkjhsdjksdh why why why whywhywwhywhywwwwwyyyy. why does this all have to happen at once or even at all. fsdhafjkdhskafs.i fucking hate school and fucking hate everythingggg.