i can't keep going on living my life like this. he abuses me emotionally and i honestly can't stand it. i don't know how i hve been able to. i am falling OUT of love with him every time he talks to me like this. "thats dumb. why did you have to talk like that. that sounds stupid. that is stupid.." i CANNOT say it enough, but when someone is venting to you and you're on the fucking phone with them, how they talk to someone else.. maybe me bianca amanda and brooke are the only real people here, BUT WHAT THE FUCK ? i'm sorry i'm the only respectful person here and i know how to say HOLD ON. i donkt now.. there is just something about it when someone picks YOU, out of everyone.. to talk to you about their problems and their venting and shit, they're not going to want to repeat themselves.. you better fucking give your full attention to them. THATS JUST A LITTLE THING CALLED RESPECT. i'm sorry but no fucking excuse covers it, i don't want to hear it. it's all bullshit so FUCK YOU!! i know i deserve bettter. this is definitly abuse in some form. it's just getting me to that point to let go. that's so hard but i need it. i know i do. he's got to be bipolar. i can't live like this anymore. i'm definitly not in love anymore. i know this, i can feel it. he's a changed person and i can't keep waiting for him to change back. i can't change him, and he can only change himself. letting go has never been so hard.