so, i havent spoken to my aunt pam or cousin sydney for 7 years until yesterday. i hung out with them yesterday. its really a long story, but it was so crazy being with them. sydney is now 13 years old! last time i was with her, she was only 6.. god shes grown up so much. my mom says me, her and shaynee were casualties of war. hence the entry title.tomorrow im going to be with them also.. i really dont like my aunt pam, but i cant be mean to her because i miss sydney so much. shes my cousin and i dont even get to be with her that much. :( speaking of being with someone.. robb is gone till sunday. :( jenn and i havent talked in so long. last time i talked to her we were in the same position, but now were not.. and i dont know. i feel like its drifting and im leaving to go see her on the 9th. im kinda iffy about going now.. i dont want to be like that. drifting. thats all it is. but i knew it would happen sooner or later, were growing up. i just really didnt want to believe it was going to happen. i love reading, it makes me feel far away. it helps me escape in a way. im in a really good book rightn ow, at least its keeping me busy.