tomorrow morning everything should be finalized i hope to fucking god. i'm scared to death, fuck i hope everything goes the way planned. otherwise, i'm definitly going to.. i don't know. i'm not even going to think about the negative in this, i really can't afford it. christmas was sweet. & thats all i'm going to say about that. today was not so sweet, and thats all i'm going to say about that. my life feels soo out of control. i'm going to lose weight, i always say this but i seriously feel determined. i let myself go this past year and it's hitting me pretty big right now, and besides the fact to that other little addition to what i did. so, starting tomorrow. no, tonight i'm going to eat better, work out and fuckin lose weight. hell yeaah.