today was stupid. i was all stressed out over finals and extremely tired. but i slept not to bad. but im so paranoid today. bout things that i shouldnt be. i need to talk i guess. but the things im paranoid about dont mean im going to do them but i want to get my feelings out but without worrying another person. theres nothing wrong. i just get like this and it wont get to me to bad. its just a lil paranoia i have in the back of my mind that needs to be put to DEATH!-lol. anyways..tomara is the last of my finals until the end of the 2nd semester which hasnt even started yet. whoop. no whoop. i have gym-wonderful. not. but yea tomara's biology final is a killer and may destroy the grade i have working my ass off to get in that class. i jsut hate studying. i feel taht if i know it i know it. and studying just stresses me out and complicates it even more. today shem and carin went home with me with dave. we were standing in the snow for about a half an hour. i was pretty damn cold but ive actually been colder.and not a great feeling when the coldness in your body turns to great pain and burning feelings. but i just couldnt move today thats all lol. i went to yell at my brother cus he was being mean and my mouth didnt move right and the words came out all weird and i made an ass out of myself. lol.(im turning dutch) but i was really cold and jealous of the kids who were passing us in their nice,heated cars! but yea we finally found dave who was at the whole other end of the school listening to duran duran. lol. mimi was angry at me. she has never yelled at me.however she did today and i was suprised. but it was shems fault as we figured out later. but i ate lunch at mimis with pap also. and then nate came down. i learned that my grandparents house is alot older than i thought it was. my dad,pap and his dad were all born there. whew. lol. then i went home took a nap. got online talked to charles a bit,called capri,cried,studied,wrote,and now im here! and this computer is going really slow and its making me really mad! grawr. damn norton anti-virus. ha thanks charles for the comment. so i guess ill keep posting. but jsut for you hun. later